(Sitting
at Subway on a Friday night in Centerville wondering why we park on
driveways....and drive on parkways!)
Tonight
is one of those rare nights for me. There’s nothing pressing that
needs to be done – right at this moment. Though it’s a Friday
night, I covered my football game last night, and though I could get
my articles done for the week after next...lol...that’s what the
weekend is for. Friday night in Tennessee during the fall – a
pretty nice place to be.
As
I write this, this is one of those nights that I have no idea what my
fingers will type. I drove to Nashville earlier to pick up some mail.
You ever have one of those times when every song you hear just hits
you? Tonight, it did. It’s about an hour and ten minute drive from
Nashville to Centerville, and between the new CD’s that were sent
to me and the tunes on Sirius – I heard some great ones. Biz Markie
(You might be surprised to know I know who that is!), Carly Simon,
Pink, and even a new song called “Popular,” that even though I
will be 40 years old in a few months....I actually liked. Then,
Sirius Love Songs played “Here We Are” by Gloria Estefan.
Seriously?
OK,
let me explain. That song has no personal significance to me as far
as a moment in time with someone else. But, a Gloria Estefan love
song – on a cool fall night – hits me much the same way a Karen
Carpenter classic from the 70s does. Gorgeous...Stunning....but also
Really? LOL.
As
someone who is single, I can lure myself into not thinking about my
romantic state for awhile. But, sometimes you hear a song, and it
hits you. It’s not all bad, though. I guess it gives you something
to dream about.
I
have wrtitten before about the fact that for years I judged myself on
if I was seeing anyone. Thankfully, I don’t do that anymore. But, I
gotta admit life is a little more excitement filled when there is
that someone special in it.
The
difference between now and then is I am beginning to understand you
have to be happy with yourself in order to truly make someone
happy....Wait a minute, did I say that? Wish I had known that in
1996! And, you can’t force it. I mean, you can dress decently,
shave when you need to, and stuff, but typically, the woman of your
dreams isn’t going to be waiting in the Buck Owens section at
Ernest Tubb Record Shop....But, oh, if she were!.....I have shown a
willing nature at not doing relationships the right way for whatever
reason in my life.....so next time, I am going to let it happen
naturally. I don’t like being alone. But, I can handle it. That’s
different.
I
do believe that she is out there. Who knows, I might even know her?
No, that’s not a veiled attempt to say something without saying
something....or then again, maybe it is. Only my brain knows for
sure. But, sometimes you’ve gotta wait.
Still,
a Gloria Estefan song on a fall night with a breeze in the air –
not a good thing for the single person. On second thought, maybe I do
need to go write an article for three weeks from today.....Good night
from Subway!
